Letting Him Down Easy

The guy that asked me to grad is incredibly nice and sweet, but he's not my type. I feel bad saying that, but when I don't like someone, it isn't really something I can control, I guess.
Here's the thing. He told me he liked me, on the band trip, and then won me a prize at this arcade thing and I thought it was so sweet! But it still doesn't change anything. I always feel bad when I don't like someone back, because I know how crappy it feels to not be liked by the person you like, I can't change my feelings. That's why they are called feelings, you don't control how you feel, you just feel it.
So when he told me, everything got really awkward, I didn't know what to say or do, he is the sweetest and super nice, but, I don't know, I just don't like him the way he likes me.
But really, there is no such thing as letting someone down easy. Hearing from someone you really like, that they don't like you back, is going to hurt no matter what. It's not something you can control. But instead of being like "eww! I don't like you like that and never will!" Just be nice about it. Like, "Oh, sorry, but I don't feel the same way about you." It's just a lot nicer, and won't make them feel as bad.
As for the people who are on the other end, as in the people liking people who don't like you back, it's going to be okay. This will sound really cliche, but there are plenty of fish in the sea, and it's their loss if they don't like you. I am sure you are a good person and you will be loved by someone eventually. Just give it time.

I'm Moving...AGAIN!?

When I was ten I moved away from my favourite place in the world, my home. I don't just mean I moved a couple blocks away, no, I moved half way across the country. It killed me, it is still killing me, slowly and painfully. I moved from Calgary to a small island, called P.E.I It's not that the island is a bad place or anything, it is just the fact that I didn't grow up here, and it's not my real home. I'm sure I would love it here if I had grown up here, but one problem, I didn't and I have to deal with it until I have the chance to go back.
My family bought a hotel here, which, at first I thought would be fun, but it's really not. I don't know why I dislike it so much but I do. I guess my parents kind of clued into that, and two night ago, on my way back from the band trip, my mom told me we were moving. At first I was confused, but then she said that it was only a couple minutes away from the hotel, but it's actually a house. We will still own the hotel, just not live in it. The best part is, it is right beside my friends Sarahs house. So that means we will get to hangout a lot more. Her and I had a huge fight at the beginning of the year, and it was over with a while ago, but we never started hanging out again after that, and we both agreed this would probably be a good thing for the both of us, and now maybe we can be like we used to be.
It's a small house, but this way I can actually decorate my room the way I want to, which makes me extremely happy!
The house is no Calgary, but it is going to have to do for a few more years, until I can go back.

I Got The Dress

Okay, so I know this is an extremely bad picture, but other than that, I love this dress! I love it so so much! I  am actually so happy with it, I honestly thought I was going to get a really crappy, cheap dress this year, since it isn't my grade nine graduation dance, but I didn't! I will obviously get a better one next year, I'm thinking a cupcake dress, but this year, it's perfect for me! 

I got this on my band trip at Urban Planet. It wasn't to expensive, $56. Not to bad. I am going to try to find some simple jewelry to go with it. Like a plain silver necklace, with a simple charm. I am not going to be wearing a bracelet though, because I will be getting a corsage. 

After buying my dress, I got super super excited, and now I can'y wait for June to role around! 

She Strikes Again

My french teacher, Oh my god! I cannot even begin to fathom how much I dislike her! She seems like she doesn't even know the french, because we will ask her what a word means and she'll tell us, but then we will look it up in the dictionary, just to make sure, and it will be wrong.
But anyway, I have gotten so many detentions from her getting mad a stupid things. Today I was laughing because she was starring at me really weirdly/awkwardly at me. So she sent me out into the hall. I didn't really care, I mean, it wasn't the first time. So it was probably like half way through class that I got sent out there, and it was last period, and I was legit out there for the rest of that class. Again, I didn't really care, and we have a rack of magazines out in the hall too. I pretty much just sat there and read a magazine, and I found out that I look good in spring colours, my horoscope for this month seems pretty good, I found out what type of guy I am looking for and some stuff about random celebrities. I was kind of thinking by the end of class she would come out and talk to me, and get mad, and make me late for my bus and such. But no, she didn't even talk to me, so pretty much she sent me out of a class I don't like, let me read magazines, and not have to do any of my work. Sounds pretty good. Although, before I got sent to the haul I got a detention, but jokes on her, because my class isn't at school tomorrow during detention time. I am either not at the school when ever she gives me detentions, or she isn't at the school. So out of the six that I have gotten, I think I've been to one. I will admit, I am not the best or nicest student, but I would thought she would have given up with me by now, I am always going to be sassy.

Band Trip!

I am in my school band...Yeah, make jokes all you want, It may be nerdy, but I kind of like it. All jokes aside though, my school band goes on trips, usually every second year, but I guess now we are making it yearly, which is actually pretty exciting, except for, you know, the actually playing music part of it. Just kidding. But we do have tons of fun on these trips. Last year we went to Halifax, which was a blast! We got to stay the night in a pretty awesome hotel and I got to share a room with three off my awesome friends. The first day we were there, we traveled there on a tour bus, which was pretty awesome. Once we got there, right away we went to play our concert, which I remember none of. After we went to our hotel, unpacked out things, ate pizza, and went to see a concert, which in all honesty, was not exciting at all! But right after that we got to go to a dance with a bunch of other people, which also wasn't very fun, it was kind of boring. After we went back to our hotel and had a pretty crazy night. (That's what she said) But, no seriously, it was really fun that night. My group spent the duration of our night eating pringles/candy and drinking pop and coffee, with about ten thousand bags of sugar in them, prank calling other rooms with our other friends in them. It was really fun. It was also kind of funny, because our band teacher decided to put tape on the doors, to make sure we didn't sneak out, and halfway through the night is where it got weird. Everyone was calling each other on the phones, and laughing pretty loudly, and goofing around, and looking out the peep holes on the doors, because we thought we heard something, and someone (most likely our teacher) came up and put tape over the peep holes. To this day none of us no why she did it, but everyone was freaking out about it, which I found funny. Everyone though there was a masked murderer on the loose, while my friend and I were just sitting there like "Yup, for sure." Then the next morning we all went for a lovely breakfast downstairs. After breakfast we did my favourite thing on the trip. We went go carting! Soon After we went for lunch, and straight to the mall. Then was the drive home, which was mostly people sleeping, or showing everyone all the new stuff they got, and laughing with their friends. 

This year is not an over night trip, but it still sounds like it is going to be incredibly awesome! We leave this Friday, April 26th, 2013. First we are going on an hour drive to play at a school. Which isn't as glamorous as last year, but at least it's something. Straight after that we are going for lunch at freaking MONTANA'S! Which is awesome enough as it is. I mean, who doesn't love Montana's? Then it's off to the zoo, it sounds childish, but I believe you are never to old to go to the zoo. We are also seeing Jurassic park, in 3D. I personally love those movies! After that we are going to the mall, where I am going to stalk up on mac make up, or what ever looks good... Summer clothes and body sprays. I am so excited for that part of the trip! Then comes the ride home.

I am actually extremely excited for this trip! I don't know what time we will be getting home, so sorry if I don't get the chance to write and new entry. I will try to get some pictures up from the trip as well!

First Practice of The Season

So it's time for story time with Renee.
Today we had out first softball practice of the season, and everything was going super well. I was having so much fun, until my coach decided it would be fun to put me as catcher...Not a good idea! Most of the people that were up to bat were pretty good, and were able to hit the ball, so I didn't come in contact with the ball that much, until, one person actually missed. It was the first extremely hard ball that was coming my way (That's what she said) But in all seriousness, it was really fast, and I had never been catcher before, nor, did I want to. It was also the end of the practice, so my coach told me not to bother putting any of the gear on except the helmet, which doesn't seem bad, but holy crap was it scary! So someone had finally missed the ball and it was coming straight for mt face, so I legit, curled up into a ball and lied on the ground....Well, you can tell I would be a fantastic catcher! But no, it was really scary! For those of you who don't know this, softballs are really big and heavy, so it was really terrifying, plus, I didn't have any of the equipment on, which made it even worse. That's one fail story about me...don't worry, I am sure there are many more to come.

Summer Time

Am I the only one that is getting sick and tired of this weather? It is April and it's only a little warmer than it was in March. Well, it was up until this week. It has finally started to warm up a little bit, a couple night ago it was 18 degrees Celsius. When I saw that it was that nice out, I got so excited. I know it's only 18 degrees, but it was so awesome to see that it is warming up. So much more awesome than when it happened last year, or the year before, or even the year before that. So why is it so special? Because, now it means that there is only one more year until my trip back home! I have missed it there so much. For those of you who don't know what I am talking about, I am talking about my home, where I grew up, the place I loved so much. I moved from Calgary when I was nine, and never did I think I would still miss it as much as I do. The whole trip back home isn't for sure yet, but as long as I can get the money by next summer, I don't see the problem. I have a job this summer also, at the same place I have been working for the past 2 years, and the pay doesn't suck to bad, so I'm sure I will be able to come up with the money by then! Honestly, I don't think I would miss Calgary so much if I didn't have my three awesome friends. None of them went to my school, but they all lived extremely close to me, and everyday after school I would always be with at least one of them. If I didn't know them, I swear, I wouldn't miss it there this much! Seeing them, I can't even begin to fathom how amazing it would be! They were always there for me as kids, and I looked up to all of them. I miss them more then anything, and the beauty of seeing them again is, it's a dream.

Grad Dress Fail

So today I had planned to go into town with one of my friends to find our grad dance dresses, or try I guess. We got to the mall, both ready to find a dress for grad dance, we had our money and we were walking around the mall looking into different stores. I guess that there is not much out yet, maybe it is to early to get our grad dresses or something, but we couldn't find a thing! Well, actually we found a few nice dresses, I saw an extremely pretty, blue cupcake dress, but it was way to expensive, for my price range that is. So after the mall we decided, just for kicks, to go to a few thrift shops and try to find something, we couldn't find a thing. It was a very long day, and I completely thought I was going to be able to get a nice dress today. I guess i was wrong. Luckily I am going to Moncton this upcoming Friday for a band trip and we are making a stop at the mall, and I'm hoping that I can find something nice, I'm hoping to get a cupcake dress. And if I can't find one there my only option is to order online. I mean, I guess that's not that bad, but I am always scared that I am going to get the wrong size. Oh well, I will live.

New blog!

Hey guys! So I finally started my blog! I have wanted a blog for who knows how long and I am so happy I got one. I have also wanted a youtube account for such a long time, and my friend finally convinced me to get one. I was always really nervous about getting a youtube account. I don't know why though. But now that I have one, I love it so much. It is such a relief to be able to come home, make a video, and just forget the world for a while, because when I am filming nothing bothers me. Kind of weird right? Yeah I know. But yes, I started a youtube and you can go to it by clicking this link-http://www.youtube.com/channel/UCUpEt70PUTIqVx6dYoa9n-A

So, more on my blog, this blog. This is where you can find out about my life, honestly you will probably find out more about me than most of my friends. I don't know how many times a week I will write. I guess when ever something worth writing about happens.