Extra Curricular Problems

I am one to sleep in on weekends, like, a lot. I mean I usually don't actually get out of bed until about 2pm, which sucks because I always wake up extremely hungry.
I am in so many extra curricular activities, it's not even funny, I am on almost every sports team. I was in drama last year, but we didn't do it this year. Not to mention all of the "studying" I do (Always on tumblr) I am almost always busy.
It is always the worst when we have weekend practices or anything like that, I honestly wouldn't mind if they were on the weekends and started in the afternoon. But no, that's not how it works, they have to do it the earliest time possible. Well nine O clock anyway, which is just way to early for me. Last year for drama we had to be there at like 10am for a rehearsal that went until like four or something, and that was bad enough. Now this Saturday I have to get up at 7:30am because I have to be at the softball field for 9am. It was bad enough going to drama at 10, now I have to go and play softball at nine in the morning. I'm sorry, but that's not my thing! I have already gotten, like, no sleep this week and it's only Tuesday and I know for a fact I won't be able to sleep tonight.
Speaking of early morning stuff, this morning was our last early morning band practice for the rest of the year. You don't even understand how much of a relief that is! I hate early morning band. I already have to get up early enough for school, I don't like having to get up for band earlier than I do for school. Don't get me wrong, I like band, but I also like sleep.
Early morning activities just aren't my thing. 

Things That I hate #1

I hate a lot of things in life, and I thought I would share some of them with you, but I am not going to write all of them today, because it would be extremely long, so welcome to part one of things I hate.

Clowns: The story behind this is that when I was probably eight or nine I started watching the show The Mentalist, Yeah, I know, I was a pretty cool kid. I started watching it, and one episode was about a guy dressed in a clown suit who killed a person, and the clown face was really freaking scary. As if that didn't scare me enough, about a year later I watched "It" I think that's what it's called, and it was just about this thing dressed as a clown or something, I honestly completely forget, but all I know is that it was incredibly scary to me when I was that age, and I have just hated them since!

Spiders: Honestly, there is no real story behind my passionate hate for spiders, I just never really liked them, in fact, I've always hated them! I think that they are gross, and they are creepy and weird. Their legs are stupid, I don't like bugs at all in anyway, or arachnids, or what ever they are called.

Drama: Drama is something that I try not to be apart of, but me trying to help someone with a problem I get sucked into the "drama vortex" which by the way is the most annoying thing ever, especially when you are trying your very hardest not to be apart of it. Which leads to the next thing I hate...

People: I guess it's not really people in general, more just annoying people. Like the people who cause drama, who just make everything so dramatic, people who talk about their friends, people who are rude and expect to have a bunch of friends, etc. There are very few people I will accept to hangout with me, and it's not because I am so cool I have to have a limit of friends, no, I'm far from that. I hand pick my friends, because I get annoyed so easily that if you are even the slightest but annoying when you are around me and I am in a bad mood, you will probably get punched.

So that is just the first part of "Things that I hate" If you share a passionate hate for any of these things, I am sure we will get along just fine...Unless you are annoying.

Is It Seriously Going To Snow?!?!

So, it is the middle of may, calling for flurries, no big deal, right? HUGE DEAL! I got sick of snow a quarter through winter, because snow means cold, and cold means no sun, no sun means no summer, no summer means: No tan, no parties, no work, so no money, no friends, no shorts, no cute outfits, and no steady diet of ice cream and fries! Obviously the snow won't last long, or at least I'm hoping anyway.
I swear the only reason I like winter is because of Christmas and my birthday, and sometimes you can wear some pretty cute outfits in the winter, if you try that is, my winter fashion usually consists of leggings and big hoodies. So there is not much to look forward to in the winter for me, but summer is all different!
Summer is the time where all of the bad stuff goes away. I forget about everything that happened that school year, screw new year resolutions, summer resolutions is more like it! I mean, sure, make your new years resolutions all you want, but isn't summer a better time? Here's why; During the summer there is a huge break between grades and everyone forgets about most things the previous year, so when you get back to school, if you changed people don't notice to much, because summer sunshine makes you hazy with past memories. You forget who the person was, and you feel so bad, you just act like that person is being exactly who they used to be.
That is just my opinion. New years resolutions are great, but there is nothing that tops the new you summer edition.

Summer 2013 Bucket List

My friend Martha and I have been planning to make the summer of 2013 one of the best summers ever! So we started a "Summer 2013 Bucket list" with all the things that we want, no wait, HAVE to do before summer ends this year. So I though I would share the things that we are doing with you, so if you have nothing to do over the summer to try some of these things as well.

1. Buy and eat a whole box of Oreo's just for fun.

Honestly I don't know why this is one of the things on our bucket list, but I quite enjoy the idea, probably because I am like in love with Oreo's! 

2. Go to the lobster barn and have a real dinner.

The Lobster Barn is a restaurant here that we have gotten take out from, but have never sat down and had a real meal there, so we thought it would be a fun idea to just go out for dinner there one night, because their food is amazing. They don't just have seafood either, which is good, because I am not a big fan of seafood.

3. walk around at midnight. 

Where we live in the summer night is really chill, and it's pretty common for teenagers to just walk around with their friends, it's even common for teens to go swimming at midnight here, which is always quite fun!

4. go swimming at night.

We did this last summer as well a couple times, but we wanted to make sure we did again this year, because it was so fun last year. Night swimming usually means between 9:30pm and 12:30am.

5. Renee's gourmet hot chocolate.

So I have always had a thing with making really complicated drinks, and my hot chocolate is Marthas favourite, it is pretty much just hot chocolate with a crap ton of whipped cream on top, with chocolate syrup drizzled on the whipped crap, sprinkles over that, with cinnamon and coconut chavings, with one single, small piece of chocolate in the center of the whipped cream.

6. Everything but the kitchen sink sundaes.

This is something that Martha and I saw in a movie once. Basically all it is is just everything sweet you have in your kitchen in a bowl. ex: Ice cream, gummy bears, peanut butter. Stuff like that, it is possibly the most unhealthy thing in the world!

7. on a really hot day go swimming first thing in the morning.

I have a beach straight down the road from my house, it seriously takes like 2 minutes to get there on foot. We pretty much live at the beach when we aren't working, so we both thought it would be cool to go swimming really early in the morning before we both have to go off to work.

8. Go for a run at least twice a week.

We both agreed that in the summer juggling work and the beach it is pretty hard to get time into exercise, not to mention the amount of food we eat in the summer, and we are both pretty thing right now, and we kind of want to stay that way, so we thought it would be a good idea to keep our fitness up by going for runs occasionally.

9. get a decent amount of exercise like swimming running biking etc.

This pretty much goes in with the running one, so we pretty much just want to keep our the amount of exercise we do up.

10. Go kayaking.

I have only ever been Kayaking once, and that was with my friend Madison and Martha has never gone, so we decided that we should go kayaking at least once this summer, because it is extremely fun and a great form of exercise.

11. Go paddle boarding.

This is basically where you just stand on a surf board and take an oar and paddle around. We saw some people doing it once, and we thought it was the most hilarious looking thing ever, so we just figured we had to do it!

12. go on another adventure.

Last summer we went walking around just kind of "exploring" and we found a beach that we had never seen before, so we thought it'd be fun to walk along it to get back home, turns out the way home we had to climb a cliff thing, and walk through a beach at low tide, which is not smart, because when it is low tide the beach is full of sea crabs, and I hate sea crabs with a passion so Martha and I were like freaking out every time one would even come close to us. We hated the adventure as it was going on, but after is was over we thought it was so funny, and we wanted to try something like that again, just with a different place.

13. photo shoot.

Last year we didn't take as many photos of us in the summer all that much, and we wanted to be able to remember everything, so we want to take a lot more photos than we did last summer.

14. Water fight.

Our friend Henry comes out here every summer, for the whole summer, from Rhode Island, and we wanted to all have a water balloon/water gun fight at the beach, because it just seems like a lot of fun.

15. Brownie in a mug.

I honestly don't really know what this is, Martha put this on the list, and I don't know what it is, so I guess I will have to find out when we come across that one.

16. Learn to skateboard.

I already know how to skate board, but Martha doesn't, so she wanted me to teach her how to this summer, just for fun.

17. Experiment more with make up.

We mean this more with lip colours, because I do a lot of different things around my eyes, but for some reason I always feel odd wearing bright lip colours, so I wanted to come out of my shell more this summer, and try some new bright lip colours.

I encourage all of you to try some of these bucket list items, we tried to make them as fun as possible and we are super excited for the summer to start. I am going to be keeping you up with the process of us achieving items on out bucket list, so expect a lot of posts on new things that we tried!

Saying Yes!

For the past three years thing haven't been the best for me, and I think it was partly because after things got bad I thought that was it, like everything was over. I didn't think anything would ever get better, and I was extremely scared to do anything, or go anywhere with anyone. I became a major pessimist, I could find the bad in everything, from as far as a homework assignment, or even my out look on life. I started saying no to everything, going anywhere, hanging out with anyone, doing anything. I was isolated basically, I had built up a wall of emotions against my bed room door, I pretty much lived in there, with exceptions of school and food. I honestly wasn't trying to make things better at all, all I would do is complain about how awful my life was, I was being a complete wimp pretty much. I was scared of everything and everyone, I didn't want to get attached to anyone, I wasn't ready to get hurt, because everything I loved got taken away from me so quickly, with the whole moving thing. Why wouldn't it happen again? That was pretty much my outlook on life. Everything was one big mystery to me, I didn't take any chances, I was to scared I would screw up.

But now, it is going to be all different. I am going to start taking chances and saying yes to more opportunities that come my way, I am going to try and turn my life around, even though it may be a struggle, in the end, who knows, it may be an amazing thing. I am going to say yes to more friends, to spending less time on the internet (that one might be harder than others) I am going to go out more and make new memories, because as of right now, I am going to start changing. I never believed that people could fully change, but that's the thing. I didn't believe it, because I was never put in the position of wanting to change, but now that I am, I can start to believe more in the concept of change, and the whole process of it all. I encourage anyone who may be reading this to try this exactly. Say yes to more opportunities, just like the saying says. "Inhale the good stuff, exhale the bad stuff." What I mean is say yes that could make your life better, happier, and not so isolated, don't say yes to things like smoking and drugs. That's not going to get you anywhere.

Say yes, to saying yes!   

Summer Job

I have had the exact same summer job for the past three year, and I'm not complaining.
In the mornings I sometimes help out with breakfast, like preparing the plates to make them look presentable, cut up fruit, make tea and coffee. The normal stuff you would do for breakfasts. In the mornings, after breakfast is served I clean hotel rooms. That is for sure my least favourite thing to do at work. I very much dislike having to clean up after people, I can barely clean up after myself, let alone anyone else. But in the afternoons I am a waitress/dishwasher. Which isn't that bad, unless you get a rude costumer, which isn't often, and even when there is a rude costumer it can sometimes be funny to listen to the things they say. At nights I have time to myself to go to the beach, and just do what ever I want.
If you haven't already guessed I work at a bed and breakfast, and it is a pretty good job, but I do work for my parents which isn't always the funnest, but the pay is pretty good, so what ever right? I worked part time the first year, and last year I worked full time, this year I'm thinking of just working part time again, because I kind of want to have one last summer of just hanging out with friends. But I also want to work full time, because I am trying to save up for a trip back home, and a phone, and I decent camera. So full time would probably be best.

Letting Him Down Easy

The guy that asked me to grad is incredibly nice and sweet, but he's not my type. I feel bad saying that, but when I don't like someone, it isn't really something I can control, I guess.
Here's the thing. He told me he liked me, on the band trip, and then won me a prize at this arcade thing and I thought it was so sweet! But it still doesn't change anything. I always feel bad when I don't like someone back, because I know how crappy it feels to not be liked by the person you like, I can't change my feelings. That's why they are called feelings, you don't control how you feel, you just feel it.
So when he told me, everything got really awkward, I didn't know what to say or do, he is the sweetest and super nice, but, I don't know, I just don't like him the way he likes me.
But really, there is no such thing as letting someone down easy. Hearing from someone you really like, that they don't like you back, is going to hurt no matter what. It's not something you can control. But instead of being like "eww! I don't like you like that and never will!" Just be nice about it. Like, "Oh, sorry, but I don't feel the same way about you." It's just a lot nicer, and won't make them feel as bad.
As for the people who are on the other end, as in the people liking people who don't like you back, it's going to be okay. This will sound really cliche, but there are plenty of fish in the sea, and it's their loss if they don't like you. I am sure you are a good person and you will be loved by someone eventually. Just give it time.

I'm Moving...AGAIN!?

When I was ten I moved away from my favourite place in the world, my home. I don't just mean I moved a couple blocks away, no, I moved half way across the country. It killed me, it is still killing me, slowly and painfully. I moved from Calgary to a small island, called P.E.I It's not that the island is a bad place or anything, it is just the fact that I didn't grow up here, and it's not my real home. I'm sure I would love it here if I had grown up here, but one problem, I didn't and I have to deal with it until I have the chance to go back.
My family bought a hotel here, which, at first I thought would be fun, but it's really not. I don't know why I dislike it so much but I do. I guess my parents kind of clued into that, and two night ago, on my way back from the band trip, my mom told me we were moving. At first I was confused, but then she said that it was only a couple minutes away from the hotel, but it's actually a house. We will still own the hotel, just not live in it. The best part is, it is right beside my friends Sarahs house. So that means we will get to hangout a lot more. Her and I had a huge fight at the beginning of the year, and it was over with a while ago, but we never started hanging out again after that, and we both agreed this would probably be a good thing for the both of us, and now maybe we can be like we used to be.
It's a small house, but this way I can actually decorate my room the way I want to, which makes me extremely happy!
The house is no Calgary, but it is going to have to do for a few more years, until I can go back.

I Got The Dress

Okay, so I know this is an extremely bad picture, but other than that, I love this dress! I love it so so much! I  am actually so happy with it, I honestly thought I was going to get a really crappy, cheap dress this year, since it isn't my grade nine graduation dance, but I didn't! I will obviously get a better one next year, I'm thinking a cupcake dress, but this year, it's perfect for me! 

I got this on my band trip at Urban Planet. It wasn't to expensive, $56. Not to bad. I am going to try to find some simple jewelry to go with it. Like a plain silver necklace, with a simple charm. I am not going to be wearing a bracelet though, because I will be getting a corsage. 

After buying my dress, I got super super excited, and now I can'y wait for June to role around! 

She Strikes Again

My french teacher, Oh my god! I cannot even begin to fathom how much I dislike her! She seems like she doesn't even know the french, because we will ask her what a word means and she'll tell us, but then we will look it up in the dictionary, just to make sure, and it will be wrong.
But anyway, I have gotten so many detentions from her getting mad a stupid things. Today I was laughing because she was starring at me really weirdly/awkwardly at me. So she sent me out into the hall. I didn't really care, I mean, it wasn't the first time. So it was probably like half way through class that I got sent out there, and it was last period, and I was legit out there for the rest of that class. Again, I didn't really care, and we have a rack of magazines out in the hall too. I pretty much just sat there and read a magazine, and I found out that I look good in spring colours, my horoscope for this month seems pretty good, I found out what type of guy I am looking for and some stuff about random celebrities. I was kind of thinking by the end of class she would come out and talk to me, and get mad, and make me late for my bus and such. But no, she didn't even talk to me, so pretty much she sent me out of a class I don't like, let me read magazines, and not have to do any of my work. Sounds pretty good. Although, before I got sent to the haul I got a detention, but jokes on her, because my class isn't at school tomorrow during detention time. I am either not at the school when ever she gives me detentions, or she isn't at the school. So out of the six that I have gotten, I think I've been to one. I will admit, I am not the best or nicest student, but I would thought she would have given up with me by now, I am always going to be sassy.

Band Trip!

I am in my school band...Yeah, make jokes all you want, It may be nerdy, but I kind of like it. All jokes aside though, my school band goes on trips, usually every second year, but I guess now we are making it yearly, which is actually pretty exciting, except for, you know, the actually playing music part of it. Just kidding. But we do have tons of fun on these trips. Last year we went to Halifax, which was a blast! We got to stay the night in a pretty awesome hotel and I got to share a room with three off my awesome friends. The first day we were there, we traveled there on a tour bus, which was pretty awesome. Once we got there, right away we went to play our concert, which I remember none of. After we went to our hotel, unpacked out things, ate pizza, and went to see a concert, which in all honesty, was not exciting at all! But right after that we got to go to a dance with a bunch of other people, which also wasn't very fun, it was kind of boring. After we went back to our hotel and had a pretty crazy night. (That's what she said) But, no seriously, it was really fun that night. My group spent the duration of our night eating pringles/candy and drinking pop and coffee, with about ten thousand bags of sugar in them, prank calling other rooms with our other friends in them. It was really fun. It was also kind of funny, because our band teacher decided to put tape on the doors, to make sure we didn't sneak out, and halfway through the night is where it got weird. Everyone was calling each other on the phones, and laughing pretty loudly, and goofing around, and looking out the peep holes on the doors, because we thought we heard something, and someone (most likely our teacher) came up and put tape over the peep holes. To this day none of us no why she did it, but everyone was freaking out about it, which I found funny. Everyone though there was a masked murderer on the loose, while my friend and I were just sitting there like "Yup, for sure." Then the next morning we all went for a lovely breakfast downstairs. After breakfast we did my favourite thing on the trip. We went go carting! Soon After we went for lunch, and straight to the mall. Then was the drive home, which was mostly people sleeping, or showing everyone all the new stuff they got, and laughing with their friends. 

This year is not an over night trip, but it still sounds like it is going to be incredibly awesome! We leave this Friday, April 26th, 2013. First we are going on an hour drive to play at a school. Which isn't as glamorous as last year, but at least it's something. Straight after that we are going for lunch at freaking MONTANA'S! Which is awesome enough as it is. I mean, who doesn't love Montana's? Then it's off to the zoo, it sounds childish, but I believe you are never to old to go to the zoo. We are also seeing Jurassic park, in 3D. I personally love those movies! After that we are going to the mall, where I am going to stalk up on mac make up, or what ever looks good... Summer clothes and body sprays. I am so excited for that part of the trip! Then comes the ride home.

I am actually extremely excited for this trip! I don't know what time we will be getting home, so sorry if I don't get the chance to write and new entry. I will try to get some pictures up from the trip as well!

First Practice of The Season

So it's time for story time with Renee.
Today we had out first softball practice of the season, and everything was going super well. I was having so much fun, until my coach decided it would be fun to put me as catcher...Not a good idea! Most of the people that were up to bat were pretty good, and were able to hit the ball, so I didn't come in contact with the ball that much, until, one person actually missed. It was the first extremely hard ball that was coming my way (That's what she said) But in all seriousness, it was really fast, and I had never been catcher before, nor, did I want to. It was also the end of the practice, so my coach told me not to bother putting any of the gear on except the helmet, which doesn't seem bad, but holy crap was it scary! So someone had finally missed the ball and it was coming straight for mt face, so I legit, curled up into a ball and lied on the ground....Well, you can tell I would be a fantastic catcher! But no, it was really scary! For those of you who don't know this, softballs are really big and heavy, so it was really terrifying, plus, I didn't have any of the equipment on, which made it even worse. That's one fail story about me...don't worry, I am sure there are many more to come.

Summer Time

Am I the only one that is getting sick and tired of this weather? It is April and it's only a little warmer than it was in March. Well, it was up until this week. It has finally started to warm up a little bit, a couple night ago it was 18 degrees Celsius. When I saw that it was that nice out, I got so excited. I know it's only 18 degrees, but it was so awesome to see that it is warming up. So much more awesome than when it happened last year, or the year before, or even the year before that. So why is it so special? Because, now it means that there is only one more year until my trip back home! I have missed it there so much. For those of you who don't know what I am talking about, I am talking about my home, where I grew up, the place I loved so much. I moved from Calgary when I was nine, and never did I think I would still miss it as much as I do. The whole trip back home isn't for sure yet, but as long as I can get the money by next summer, I don't see the problem. I have a job this summer also, at the same place I have been working for the past 2 years, and the pay doesn't suck to bad, so I'm sure I will be able to come up with the money by then! Honestly, I don't think I would miss Calgary so much if I didn't have my three awesome friends. None of them went to my school, but they all lived extremely close to me, and everyday after school I would always be with at least one of them. If I didn't know them, I swear, I wouldn't miss it there this much! Seeing them, I can't even begin to fathom how amazing it would be! They were always there for me as kids, and I looked up to all of them. I miss them more then anything, and the beauty of seeing them again is, it's a dream.

Grad Dress Fail

So today I had planned to go into town with one of my friends to find our grad dance dresses, or try I guess. We got to the mall, both ready to find a dress for grad dance, we had our money and we were walking around the mall looking into different stores. I guess that there is not much out yet, maybe it is to early to get our grad dresses or something, but we couldn't find a thing! Well, actually we found a few nice dresses, I saw an extremely pretty, blue cupcake dress, but it was way to expensive, for my price range that is. So after the mall we decided, just for kicks, to go to a few thrift shops and try to find something, we couldn't find a thing. It was a very long day, and I completely thought I was going to be able to get a nice dress today. I guess i was wrong. Luckily I am going to Moncton this upcoming Friday for a band trip and we are making a stop at the mall, and I'm hoping that I can find something nice, I'm hoping to get a cupcake dress. And if I can't find one there my only option is to order online. I mean, I guess that's not that bad, but I am always scared that I am going to get the wrong size. Oh well, I will live.

New blog!

Hey guys! So I finally started my blog! I have wanted a blog for who knows how long and I am so happy I got one. I have also wanted a youtube account for such a long time, and my friend finally convinced me to get one. I was always really nervous about getting a youtube account. I don't know why though. But now that I have one, I love it so much. It is such a relief to be able to come home, make a video, and just forget the world for a while, because when I am filming nothing bothers me. Kind of weird right? Yeah I know. But yes, I started a youtube and you can go to it by clicking this link-http://www.youtube.com/channel/UCUpEt70PUTIqVx6dYoa9n-A

So, more on my blog, this blog. This is where you can find out about my life, honestly you will probably find out more about me than most of my friends. I don't know how many times a week I will write. I guess when ever something worth writing about happens.